Get the Fire Extinguisher Ready!

Well, it's almost time to get all the fire safety equipment out of storage...yep...my birthday is just a few days away and it's a sight to behold to see all those candles lit up..a fire hazard too...LOL!..there will be 54 of them this time...we barely kept it under control last year...ha ha..just kiddin'...but my birthday is Aug. 1...in just a few days..I don't like getting older, but it beats the other option available..so I pick getting older..I was hoping to be able to spend it in Hawaii, getting a new grandson, but I don't think we're gonna make it...and our anniversary is Aug 3rd...it would be nice to spend it there too, but we haven't been given any news about the baby, so i'm not counting on it now....maybe he will be born on my birthday or our anniversary! That would be a great gift!...they still haven't picked out his name, as far as I know...Tony has his fingers crossed that they give him his middle name...it will be exciting to be in Hawaii again...but I hope I feel better than the last time I went...last time I went without Tony, and I was miserable without him...seriously. I would stand on the beach at night and cry for him...I had been apart from him before, but something about us being so FAR apart..so many miles...so far we had crossed like 4-5 time zones...I couldn't stand it...the only time I could be happy was when I was with Slick, Crystal and Carter.....and although Hawaii is beautiful, and the ocean was right out my window, I was ready to go home. I left there with the unforgettable memory of when and how we got Carter..I relive that memory often..it was sad and happy all mixed up together..I never think about it without crying a little..tears for his birthmother...tears for my children and how happy they finally were...I can still see the look on Michael's face when Crystal asked him did he want to hold his son for the first time...and I can also see Michael, carrying Carter, walk up to Tony as we got off the plane in Nashville, hand him the baby and said.."Here's your grandson"...everyone was crying happy tears!....I'm excited about going, ready to make new memories, get a new grandson, and Tony will be there with me, that will make all the difference for me.............